Body For Life

Well, I'm about 7 weeks into my only New Year's resolution. And I've pretty much turned my life upside down for this one. Of course, it started simple enough.

I just wanted to get into shape.

When I decided this, it took me about 2 weeks to figure out what I wanted to do exactly. It was important to figure out what I really wanted from this. Because I've failed a hundred times before on this one. My problem has never been lack of drive...I can summon an incredible amount of drive and will power when I want to. My problem has always been finding the right direction to point myself in. I lose the battle because I invest myself into things that I just don't care all that much for. I've no doubt I could climb Everest if I really wanted to. The key there is if I really wanted to. Typically, I'd get half way up the mountain, ask myself why the heck I'm climbing Everest, figure out I really didn't want to climb Everest...and promptly leave the mountain. So I knew even before I did my first exercise, I had to figure that part out. I had to sort out my motivations and find one I was passionate about.

And that I did. An unexpected motivation for sure. But I realized that my life is desperately lacking discipline. It's an unpleasant word I know...but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that discipline is the chasm that sits between me and every goal or dream I have. Bill Phillips put it perfectly in his book when he talked about keeping your word to yourself. It's really quite simple...if I tell myself I'm going to do something, I simply want to do it. Imagine that. But how many times have I not followed through? Many. And with each broken promise, my self confidence wanes.

And so that's my goal. Well, so there are 3 really. Discipline. Self Confidence. And a better physique, which isn't so much a goal as it is confirmation that I'm achieving the other 2.